Risen

All that I’ve got is a sinful heart

I am offering. What is it for a cloak in you

that I wanted to be clothed in?

Blessing is only for the poor, widowed

and miserable. But there is a peeping hole

even in the darkest cave. An entrance

to forgiveness. It is not my privilege

to ask. My heart is just a child resisting

the world’s demand and rules, forgetting

loved ones who waited as being so deep

in my own story of fear and anger and terror.

And I forgot to love. And I forget that I am

still a child who needs to be cared for.

I still have a fear of the belt marking my skin.

There is a picture of a monster in every corner.

That is the reason why I write stories.

There are memories I want to resist –

My mumbling voice, too tight as a child

inside my socks, and every street

was treacherous. I was lost. Then

I just want to tell stories. I want to tell

the world about love. And I am not

afraid of remembering anymore.

A child has risen.